The dreaded call.
The dreaded call from my school.
My decision must be made. Will I return to my job next year or will I resign and stay at home? This is not an easy decision.
I love staying at home. Just this morning, it was raining and the girls and I climbed back into bed, watched a little Sesame Street, and listened to the rain. I was thinking how it couldn't get better than this. I love taking the girls on long walks, going to the library or the park, my Tuesday lunches with my mom and grandmother, etc. I love not having to rush around all the time, constantly multi-tasking, and feeling like I'm doing a mediocre job at everything (mother, teacher, wife). I love the fact that I don't have to see my children cry in morning when I drop them off at the sitter's or my Mom's. I love feeling like I am making a difference in my children's growth and development (emotionally and physically). I love that my life now seems simplified.
Now, I do love teaching and in particular, my teaching job. I love that teachable moment. I love the bond that grows between teacher and student. I love the feeling that I am making a contribution to the future. I love to see academic growth and development in each and every student. I love that problem solving...trying to find the appropriate teaching style for each learning style. I love at the end of the day feeling like I am making a difference. I love the people that I work with and treasure the friendships I've made.
I've tried to do a pros and cons list but it's really harder than you might think. The one thing that keeps coming to my mind is: Can't I go back to teaching in a few years? Certainly, I could, but I would have lost my particular position that I do truly love. (I teach gifted students 1/2 of my day and the other 1/2 is spent teaching reading to students that are struggling).
Well, the decision must be made and soon. The School Board must have my decision by the March 31st meeting. Pray for me!
Friday, March 14, 2008
Posted by Lindsey at 10:04 AM